It's Scary

What's really frightening is wanting something for so long, only to realize that you're terrified of it in the first place. And when it's within reach you'd think I'd jump at the chance, but all the signs of my restraint have been present all along, tripping me while convincing everyone that it was just my own feet. It's hard to draw the line between what my head thinks and heart feels when both sides are convincing. Be careful what you wish for?